我已經相信有些人我永遠不必等

I want live my life without any regretful ...

I control my own life ,

happy or sad and whatever feeling is all depend on ME ~

Tell Out everything will make myself more relaxed ..But no one allow me to do ... ):

Time passed like a rocket ... is been 1 month d ~

想到你

突然觉得一切都照样

可能你在我心中再也不是无可取代了

但是一样很重要

重要到昨天晚上我哭的时候

满脑子都是你

各种各样的你

我觉得这样就够了

我们在各自的世界里相安无事

我还可以偷偷的想想你

你说不要我的那些话

我大脑已经自动删除了

但是我不会再说我等你、我等死你

因为现在我没有那个勇气

青春太短了

安放不下一个那么高大的你

那个对不起我爱你

太烂俗了

我只想说

没关系…不用谢

这首歌只会深深地留在我脑海。。有点痛 。。有点伤 。。。

) :

好怕发烧~ ):

上一次的发烧发生了不该发生的事。。

应该是想太多了。。吃一吃药，休一休息。。就应该没事了。。

说要来休息。。却来这里吃药。。@@

看看今天看到的 ：

好 好 的 一 个 人 ， 都 被 哪 个 星 座 给 毁 了 ？ ♥

★白羊——被处女；★金牛——被水瓶；★双子——被巨蟹；

★巨蟹——被狮子；★狮子——被金牛；★处女——被天蝎；

★天秤——被射手；★天蝎——被天枰；★射手——被摩羯；

★魔羯——被双子；★水瓶——一双鱼；★双鱼——被白羊。

怎么会是这样 ): 我的头脑在装什么。。。怎么还没过呢。。。

你會是我最後1任男朋友.. 有可能吗？

有时看到这些好像已经迟了　):

1

不需要太帅

但要有点阳光

2

可以吸烟

但为了我和你自己的健康

要努力戒烟

3

我不希望你没有过感情

只希望你在遇到我的时候

已经懂得珍惜感情

4

我不需要你会赚很多钱

只要能养活自己

并在为自己的生活有计划打拼

5

我不需要你能让我现在就住上大房子

但你要答应和我一起供一个五六十平米

属于我们的温馨的家

6

我不需要你能够每天在我身边

我们都要有自己的空间

但我希望传短信的时候

第一时间给我回应

要一直带着电话

让我可以随时找到你

7

你可以和好朋友出去玩

不必每次都带上我

但是同学聚会

一定要很欣然很骄傲的把我介绍给你的朋友

8

我不希望你会做很多家务

但是在我累的时候要肯帮我

万一哪天家里很乱

不要责备

安安静静的把家里收拾了

我会感动到哭

没有热水的时候

不要让女孩去洗衣服、洗碗

9

答应我

不要轻易喜欢上我

喜欢上我就不要轻易离开我

10

不要对我的身材挑剔

我会很认真去做到最好

如果你肯喜欢上一个肥嘟嘟的我

我会时不时给你个小惊喜

减减肥、买个漂亮的衣服

让你眼前一亮

11

为了我

你要保持

知道增重

不要太瘦

我需要一个很坚实的肩膀

随时给我靠着睡

12

有点大男子主义不要紧

但是不要太强

因为有点大男子主义的人

会一直保护他的女人

13

要我长大变成熟

不是很容易的事

要有耐心

14

万一有段时间我不想工作了

你要肯养我

我会少吃点

然后给你做好吃又经济的饭菜

要说好吃

15

不期望你像爱自己的家人一样爱我的家人

但是我爱的时候不要反对

我会对养育了我老公的公公婆婆好

有我爸妈的脑白金就有你爸妈的

16

要找个女强人

不要找我

我会努力养活自己

但是不想成为你心目中的天

我要你是我的天

17

有时间陪我看看韩剧

我哭得时候给我递纸巾

世界杯的时候我会陪你看球

还有给你录你错过的NBA

18

真的不要轻易说爱我

爱我要一辈子

准备好才说

说了不准反悔

Day 3

My Aunty's Shop

[ Zih Lin Happy FAshion ]

My dad says " Happy Fashion 杂货店 " Lolss

Address :

No.57 , Jalan Kendi ,

Kawasan Perniagaan Taman Merak,

14100 Simpang Ampat. P.Pinang.

For those who stay at Penang , can go have a look (:

The Counter

The left corner

The Right corner

第3 天，

11点起身，3点因为头痛又睡回下去。。

还是有点不舒服，应该是水土不服

不用紧，这就是学习独立的一个阶段。。照顾自己。。

dad called me just now ~

ask me is everything ok and ask me when wanna back ..

before end up the call ,

he asked me " do u miss me ? "

i says, Huh ?

he says, u din't miss daddy de meh?

i says, en la ..got la... =="

he laugh...hahaha

funny ~

before i come to penang ..my dad very sad and say since i born ,i haven leave him about half day..now i wanna go so far for so long time..he will worry...

he says no matter how big we are..he oso wan stay with us..and he will very very happy that after marry we still willing to stay with him ( cause not much guy wanna stay with parent-in-law after get marry with their daughter ) (:

Dont worry daddy, i will find a good guy that willing to stay with my parents one..and very sayang you all (:

I'm a lucky girl that have such family ...so touch...

为了爸爸，我会开开心心活着。。

我不会傻傻地等你了，但这期间我会偶尔想念你，直到我把你藏在心中的某个角落。。。变成一个回忆。。。

我爱做梦

才第二天，就有莫名的。。。累。。。

不是闷 。。。就不明白为什么。。

从8点就胃痛到现在，不敢告诉任何人，不要让任何人担心。。

还好有带药在身边。。我想早点休息就没事吧

我好爱做梦。。今天睡到12点才起身哦~不是睡不醒，是不想起身 (:

在梦里，没有眼泪，只有开心大笑~

一种很真实的幸福感觉。。❤

人好难有那种感觉哦~

现在，还没睡的我，有一种说不出的遗憾。。。

阿姨很坚强，很幸福。。而且上天赐给她最好的宝贝。。每天陪在她身边。。

一个会逗她开心的宝贝儿子 。。。

真不懂该怎继续了~ 感觉空虚。。

可能又想起他了吧~

胃有点难受 。。晚安了~

所有痛苦的爱情都来自三个字 [ 不甘心 ]

平安抵达 (:

what i can say : Penang Int' airport is so so bad impression for me ( speechless :x )

learn to be independent without parent , family and friends (:

since that day u leave ~ I guess I already leave ur heart ..

what promise you say ...just a comfort ..i got it ...

dun force yourself toward a person u don't love ...

I changed my mind after chat with aunty ..I so envy for her strong .. she think widely when she alone ..and keep remind herself to live happily without the one that hurt her much ~

No more 21st birthday promise~ No more any other promise ~

I should let go now . and let go the thing happened on January ): and face the fact ," that u wont come back to me anymore and u already didn't love me "

我一直在想：

不甘心自己的付出没有回报

不甘心自己的时间被浪费

不甘心爱情变质了

不甘心这不是我要的结果

我已经傻了21天，哭了504个小时。。。而你却自在地工作，和朋友喝茶。。。

现在我学会了，放下你，祝福你，忘掉你

报复只会弄脏自己的手，而且都得不回你的心

一直相信你成功了会回来，你还爱着我。。原来这全是我自己安慰自己的借口

所以我要让自己过得比现在更好。。

要让你回忆我。。而不是只有我痴痴地想你~

face the fact ~

Taiwan drama

《犀利人妻》

This was the man's confession at the last episode :

“这一年来我想了很多，你曾经问过我，结婚十年对我来说算什么？
我现在可以回答你，那十年，是我人生中，最幸福的时光。
十年来，我承认有许多不喜欢的地方，但是我没有跟你沟通，是我不对。
我也相信这十年来，你也有许多不满意的地方，但是你很自然的包容我，体谅我。
是我自己，是我自己对青春还有不切实际的眷恋，蒙蔽我的感觉，
我怎么能够，我怎么会跟你说出我不爱你了，
我那个时候完全不知道我自己在做什么，我怎么会这样伤害你，
安真，我没有请求你的原谅，可是可不可以让我补偿你，
我愿意用我剩余的生命，好好的爱你爱萌萌，我真的失去过，所以我更懂得珍惜。 这是我的真心话，我真的希望，
我用剩余的生命去换一天，不是特别的一天，
是平凡的一天，你在厨房做菜，我和萌萌荡秋千，我们进门的时候，听到你喊回来了，
然后我闻到饭香，接着我们坐在沙发上看着无聊的电视，
然后你抱怨说：最近菜价又涨了，哪一个邻居有搬走了，
然后我们可以安安稳稳的睡上八个小时。
只要这么一天，只要这一天，我觉得就算我死掉了我也想要回到这平凡的一天。”

and her response was :
回不去了。有很多事情去了就去了，都回不去了……

I should face the fact ... although is cruel 。。。

戏如人生 ):

善意的谎言 ❤

CONFIRMED !

虽然是一个人去，真的该学习一个人独立的时候

善意的谎言， 虽然好听，但知道事实过后，真的很伤

用了一切一切手段都只是为了挽回，真的好笨好笨。。。

我知道你答应的一切一切，什么21岁时，你会出现。。我看到了。。全都只是善意的谎言。。

全是假的。。全都只是安慰

真的没可能了。。

虽然事实很残忍，但我该是时候学习接受。。

才20岁，我真的放不下那件事。。才短短3个月，什么都改变了。。

原来这一切一切对一个男生来说不算什么。。我好心酸。。

我真的好笨。。真的好笨。。

希望回来会是全新的我~一个像以前那样，想笑就笑，想哭就哭的我。。

我不要现在这个一直躲在房间只会哭和自暴自弃的我！

我要把一丝丝 的 想念都拿掉。。。我希望我做到。。。。

笨完了，就该醒了~

（╯＾╰ )

我！

每天说

“ 我会改！我会改 ！”

都没有人相信 ~~

我真的在改啊~~

我忍不住了！

我要发泄啊！

1 ，2 ， 3 ~

“ 我真的好想结婚哦！我好想要人疼！我好想约会！我好不堪寂寞！”

o(╥﹏╥)o

我也想要

copyright @ MiaTang

爱情没有捷径，只有经营。

我也想谈一场以结婚为前提的最后一次恋爱。

虽然只有20岁，但不想再次被伤害了

FED UP!!!

I'm so FED UP !!!!!

FxK Off from my Life~~~~

I Hate those who don't believe me!!

那从前的女孩不见了
因为一生最怕的痛，也承受了。而且承受了两次
都是自己不争气，没用！

现在的女孩
不会再怕了~
痛又怎样？哭一哭 就过去了。。。
很快会振作起来

不是不会珍惜，而是得不到别人的肯定。。。

算了吧!

P/S : 但女孩的内心，常偷偷地哭泣。。。。。

我真的输得很彻底 （╯＾╰ )

ADDITIONAL :

I din realized that i miss out Disney On Ice 2011 T____T
so Fxking bad!
every year every year ...i say i wish to go..i wish to go ...
but foul ...

aiks....

Will It happen to me ??

this is what i got on Facebook :

Stage 1 meeting
Stage 2 the chase
Stage 3 Honeymoon
Stage 4 Comfortable
Stage 5 Tolerance
Stage 6 Downhill ( I hate this part ✖ ︶︹︺ ✖ )

Stage 7 Breaking up

Stage 8 Stranger

It's already happened ~But i hope the stage 8 wont come to me ~

because I still missing you ~

Create an Awesome Life

Create an awesome Life for myself

I " Dai Go Loi " d ~ (:

I shud know how to handle all the trouble ,

and dont make trouble for others , especially my family

❤ I need take care my "others"

make you stay happy and healthy ❤

From Now ~

no matter is happy or sad

I will stand and face it myself

no matter how angry / mad am i

I will stand and control it myself

I swear I can do it ~

I will finish my study this year

and wont make everyone worry about me anymore ~

BUT, OMG !

horrible thunder now ~~So scary ~~

{{{(>_<)}}}

Dont bother ~ continue my study 1st !!!

Last paper 2moro , then can go for relax ! Yeah~

~(￣▽￣)~

Missing You

I missing you in this moment , but i know that time will bring me go ...

this is only a process that i need pass by ~

Although that i got your promise , but life was varied..no one will know what will happen in the future..

You hold my hand last night

and

you confess everything to me ...

I feel touch in that moment ...

But

I'm not sure that you will remember it and done it or not...

I will just keep it as a memories and lessons...

You taught me a lot of things..

You make me knew that my family love me so much ...

at last ,

I feel happy that you face the problem , and not be a Ninja Turtle anymore ~ hahaha

Wish you all the best in your business life (:

I will miss you always ~ <3

爱 。 恨

爱与恨 只是一线之差

今天爱你，明天就可以恨你~

很搞不懂。。。

爱情其实是一件很薄很薄的东西，风一吹就没了。。

每个人一定要通过这种残忍的小插曲吗？

真的没有可以直接通往结婚进行曲的路吗？

):

人的心 是 深不可测。

就好比现在的我，根本都不懂自己在想什么？执著什么？

希望时间赶快带我走。。。。。

分享：

1.执著是种痛苦

2.坚持原则不是执著

3.世上没有不变的真理

4.何必执著花开花谢

5.看破生死得自在

6.放大心量别再嫉妒

7.以赞美代替嫉妒

KISS

I no ppl to hug hug and kissie kissie d =(

only my bear bear ..

aiks...

But luckily i still got my daddy gv me goodnight kiss everynight =D

mute told me before ..

so big d..still kiss daddy ..hahaha

now i can answer her

" You Jealous ar ! "

Xp

I restarted my single life...

hope everything will be fine soon ~

GOOD NIGHT! =3

LOVE

Once a year ....is really once a year for me to write on my bloggie ...

it's will be a long long story for me to write ...

my ages is getting older , but my mind is still maintain in kiddo world ..

{{O.0}} how stupid right ??

i sicked , i fainted , i hurt-ed everyone....

why why why...

my mind still cant open...

let's start my " mind " recap :

i broke up with the 1st boy

my fren accompany when i'm alone .

One day, i meet the 2nd boy ,

He... not that handsome , not that rich , not that romantic...

har ?? how come i can met a bad guy and fall in love with him ~=(

NO NO NO...

continue reading ESSAY 1st ...

Once i called , 2nd boy will appear in front of me ..

when i need someone , 2nd boy will call me the first..

so after one month time , we started our love ..

a memorable date we have .. ( is 12.3 ) funny hor...

on that time , my fren , my family keep not accept him ..but I do~

I give him a chance and try to love him

He love me oso ...=)

I'm the most stingy and greedy girl I think..

I asked for a diamond ring on the day i accept him..haha

bad girl~

day by day , we still everyday on call...

frm 1 hour - 2 hours , from 2 hours to 3 hours call...

in july , i found that a girl keep contact with him..i din fight , i din shout ..i just let him go ..

but one day , when i beside him the girl called...I mad ! I mad!!!

I BEH TAHAN d!!!

I scolded ppl in FB , I scolded 2nd boy face to face ...i decide to break ..but at last i dint..cause he beg me for forgiveness... I trusted...

and i asked for the 2nd diamond ring ( expensive than the previous 1 )

in August, is little princess birthday !!! =) i celebrated in sri cempaka..with my secondary school gang , my USCI noon gang ( hahah ) ....and him ( the 2nd boy ) ...the 3rd present i ask for is CAMERA ...i got it ! hahah

After that time , i feel like crazy , i will scold him because of a small matter..

i will keep mentioned the girl name...and keep nag nag nag ..NO! is scold , scold , scold...=(

my fren told me , if u really love a guy , u need let go the passed..i din listen it...

from bad to worst ,

I scold him without any reason..

family keep advice me but i " closed" my ears... T____T

but everytime he keep tam me back with his ugly big SMILE..

sometime i will " reject" him ...continue nag and scold =(

WHY !!!

scold him like shit! beat him like doll! ( i not even beat my lovely dolls before )without any awareness

day by day,

we went to Melaka with my sibling and future brother in law on Christmas day...

we went to Penang with parents on new year eve...

and on Chinese new year , we booked air ticket to Macau and china on May with my family ...

so expected...

But hope will hurt you ..this is truth ...

i din change my temper , i became crazy and crazy ...

ARRRR~ why joc become like this ... :: >.< :: like Siao Po!!!

on last few days ~ the 2nd boy ran away without notice , because i scolded him infront his aunty and even neighbor =( CRAZY!!! why i did this!

i so regret , i so so so regret and hurt ..

my fren my family was worried me ...i sick , i fainted ...i no appetite to eat also…

is the week ,my bff came my house earlier morning to accompany..and I saw another bff bloggie…I saw her concern …I cried ..thanks for being me when I’m sad …

Now i just knew that I love the guy without realizing...I miss him but it’s DAMN hurt ...

1 week… is not a long period and oso not a shirt period..we never talk in the week..i feel so scare..he can leave me alone ..and I feel like suddenly lost everything within a day~~ =(

Yesterday , I wake up frm the nightmare d…it’s really like a nightmare for 1 year long…

He talk back with me and settle our things..

YES! This is what I want…I just need an ANSWERS!!!

No matter we can be 2gather on the future not..i just hope to stay happy without regret…

I will change my temper for my parents and my friends .. I will try control it …

THANKS FOR BE WITH ME IN THE PERIOD… I KNOW U ALL LOVE ~ I LOVE YOU AL TOO !! *love

p/s : and the conclusion is , frm the started to the end .. my friends and family always be with me no matter what happen …=)